Staying here for a while. Have to attend church with the grandfolks - more of a formality than actual concern for my spiritual health.
See this flier in the hallway for a women's conference led by Dee Barnes, whose "powerful testimony about her conversion from homosexuality and pornography," alongside a certain person from my childhood saying that they always hated me, inspired this little bit.
Think of it as the polar opposite of Solarcaine's optimism.
Radio edit - unedited version on Mercy Machine.
Trigger warning: in-character deadnaming, in-character homophobia, in-character transphobia, in-character anti-Semitism, in-character racism, this character is not a good member of society. Do references to Sonny's Inner Views count as triggers?
(and yes, I wrote the coda as an attempt to tie in a million Undertale references to the character I already developed)
lyrics
Locked my lips on a girl
because a neighbor touched me
bought a Penthouse at 7-Eleven
this just enveloped my world
until God broke me free
let me deny my sexuality
now I'm in a loveless marriage
that I have to suffer in for eternity
Listen to my testimony
make sure you do good works through it
through God and the Gatling gun
through your words and imprisonment
Savannah elevator downtown
tower higher than the Holy City steeples
perverted rainbow of my horrible twenties
at least I have a praise ensemble
Listen to my beautiful word of God.
Felt myself go loose
I had committed the sin of Onan
I got hard to the love of my life
a Warhol superstar AIDS-ridden
don't know why they want rights
they had carte blanchett in NYCNY
if anything, the Good Reverend who saved me
was beaten down...
Pammie's on one hell of a bummer
if she keeps it up with her...
give her delivery
via God and the Gatling gun
Saw Wim Wenders shoot two scenes
say gay is okay, slapped his fiancé like Ranier Werner Fassbinder
and I had a strange vision, to my suspicion
I saw Harvey Milk begging for Christian mercy in the Lake of Independence Day
Listen to Pammie's testimony on Atco Records, Chastity Bono.
Praise the bloody Christ
and blame hook-nosed Judas
him and his dark skin
mine him in a De Beers plant
my wonderful testimony
deny health benefits of fluoride
Bruce denies himself
and we got Trey and Matt suckered in, suckered in...
Locked my lips upon God's
His Holy Embrace filled me up
no sex from here on out
just misconceptions and half-truths
no full-fledged autonomy
they're like kids breaking restriction
get 'em a job at Aldi
maybe they'll become chaste and scared
Pammie's...six to Sunday
she got screwed, so how do you do?
God and the Gatling gun mowed her down
prevent her agenda from forming
Shook hands with Don and Doug and the Escuela
they're reasonable - well, aren't they?
whatever you say is merely the opposite, John
your chair never moved from house to house
because if George Sears got it right
and Eli Sears and Sally made the world all great
and David Sears and Hal Emmerich kept screwing it up
then what's to say my narrative runs counter?
Pammie's testimony is hot as fire, it's hot as...
Praise the bloody Christ
and blame hook-nosed Judas
him and his dark skin
mine him in a De Beers plant
my wonderful testimony
deny health benefits of fluoride
Bruce denies himself
and we got Trey and Matt suckered in, suckered in...
Praise the bloody Christ
and blame hook-nosed Judas
him and his dark skin
mine him in a De Beers plant
my wonderful testimony
deny health benefits of fluoride
Bruce denies himself
and we got Trey and Matt suckered in, suckered in...
Dear Lord
help me be same
help me overcompensate
please benefit me, Lord Wes Scantlin.
My name isn't important
but my testimony shines over all
to save for from back-clawed sins
murdering angels in the Judgment Hall
to give my mind new corporeality
when I reach the new barrier
between eternal rest and temporal play
better the world, be the carrier
of hatred, prejudice, and fear of you
the new meme overcome
the kid screams for eternal mercy
deep within the bed of tulips
praise God for his new concept
for these constants within you
for these constants you won't revise
my love is above Earthly criticism...
credits
from Mystery Girl/Wonderful Testimony,
released January 19, 2016
Liebermintz - vocals, guitars, bass, keyboards, Session Horns, drum programming, production, Blue Jean Committee harmonies
Cardiacs has finally reached Bandcamp. This is genuinely one of my favorite albums, especially with the varied compositional styles, the mixture of psychedelia and prog rock, and Timmy's lyrics. Clicker Records
